So I’m pissed but whatever. Being raised sunni, we heard about the ummah the ummah the ummah all day long. But we were seldom in community with each other. Like beyond, ‘kaif halik’. There was a time when I needed the community.. the ummah to step in and help with my kids. There were a few volunteers but .. their husbands vetoed their offers of assistance so that was that. The result: a non muslim queer woman of color took care of my kid for 6 weeks.
That was like a decade ago.
Fast forward to a time when I’m looking for my daughter whose father has decided that I’m the devil and his mom is, too. He has literally disappeared with my baby and the progressive Muslims have stepped in… along with the queers, the wiccans, and at least 1 jewess. So I cant say the ummah isn’t there because a part of it is.
The part that promotes gender equality, and rainbow safe spaces for muslims and nonmuslims alike. There is something to be said for the community of people who connect the dots from Atlanta to Ferguson to Palistine and beyond. We are all people in need and if we can help each other in these little pockets.. bringing one kid home, feeding one family, etc, then this world peace may stand a chance.
It really does start with us.
Well, the demands that have been placed through the Organization for Black Struggle and other allies, they want the immediate firing of the police chief. Certainly we want an indictment of this officer. They’re asking for the governor to appoint a special prosecutor. They’re asking for the president and other folks to begin to investigate every unarmed killing of an American citizen, by the federal government, and not leave it to local jurisdictions, because local jurisdictions are proving that they are unable to do the work in an expedient manner.
They have a number of demands that are very, very powerful, some of which is the demilitarizing the police force. Standing behind me is a Humvee that I’ve only seen in the movies. And I’m a citizen of this country. I pay taxes. I teach our kids to be nonviolent. And yet they are with soldiers running up and down the street because they’re protesting. We raise the kids to be Martin Luther King. We show them all of the videos of the civil rights movement, and they are practicing the legacy of civil rights and resistance in this country. And they are being met with tactics that are only shown on TV in other countries who are struggling to become a democracy. It is outrageous.
And the president should be ashamed it’s happening on his watch. Eric Holder should be ashamed it’s happening on his watch. This governor should be ashamed it’s happening on his watch. This mayor should be ashamed it’s happening on his watch. Every adult in this country should be ashamed that African-American children are being terrorized by adults in the United States of America that claims to be the land of the free and the home of the brave."
Pastor Michael McBride of The Way Christian Center in Berkeley, California, on Democracy Now
(H/T XoxDawit AfeworkXox)
Distraught and disgusted.
And I’m not in a place to process this aloud.
I break out in hives.
So as it stands right now, I am a breathing example of what happens to a dream deferred.
Ebola ain’t got shit on this.
The last 10 days of Ramadan are full of Divine Mercy and Grace. I’m grateful for this time of the year no matter how raggedy my Ramadan is because of the fact that I feel like this is when Allah’s Mercy outweighs Allah’s Wrath. I wish there were more I could say about this because the situation in Gaza doesn’t feel like a manifestation of that Mercy. Same re: the missing Nigerian girls, or any number of messed up global crises that are running concurrently.
I told a friend of mine that when I want something to happen, I pray for it. She was like, “That’s it?”
I was offended because I was like what more do I need to do. I pray and then I walk away, right?
That’s what I thought for years until very recently.
There is something to be said for action. There is something to be said for using whatever you have at your fingertips to make someone’s life better. Prayer is great, but I am learning as I round out my 30s that prayer is a great starting point.. .but it’s not the finish line. I wish it was. God knows I wish it was.
So I’m making the intentions to fast these last few days cand bring in ‘Eid with God-consciousness and action.
i hope and pray that y’all’s home stretch is full of mercy and love and wonderment. Allah shows you yourself every Ramadan. And we have that time in between the appearance of this month to work on what we see. There are some things I’ve wanted to work on for the last half dozen Ramadan’s at least. And I think I’m finally close to ready.
Ramadan Mubarak y’all.
Hyper-intellectual, spiritually sexual, woman lover, womanist, lover of love.. .I could go on for days. In the end, I'm a grown woman who has finally decided to love unconditionally.
As I step back and notice what I am drawn to... I see myself loving Muslim, Queer, comedy, racial minority, woman, music, love.